I haven't posted in awhile

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Spiraling Upward

There's a reason you came into my life so randomly. One of the first things you said to me was, "Oh btw, you're really pretty. I just wish that I would have told you that when I lived there". And, when we departed from that late night aim conversation, you asked me to keep talking to you, because you wanted to talk to me. That's where it all began. I had no clue that you would be this important to me. When I was in ninth grade, and people told me how you thought I was so pretty, (which I see as something important because I didn't know how to dress then and you thought i was so cute) I thought to myself, "maybe I should try and date him". Then they told me you were moving, so I was just like oh never mind. Look at me now. You've changed my life drastically and helped me become comfortable with who I am. I really had no clue what I was getting myself into that day you asked me to be yours. But, I'm thankful for every second I have spent beside you. Good or bad. Everyone thinks I am being so idiotic to date you once again, but like you said, it hurts us both too much to let us date other people. We came together for a reason, and it wasn't for it to just end. I always always saw something wonderful about you. No matter what we put each other through, we can't give each other up. We've been on the emotional rollercoaster and have had some pretty crazy nights. I love you, and thank you for loving me.

Fear

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Coach Carter

We had to cut them off

I love the random thoughts about life that I have on my way to class. I feel so sophisticated, haha. Today, I wrote this paragraph in spanish, which I normally suck at. My Spanish teacher read it and said "you write really well, you should not have the grade that you have in here." I have a 92. Haha, it made me feel really good. I love it when you have those random moments, where something that you didn't mean to happen, or didn't expect, that make you bust out laughing. That happened at Younglife tonight. Casey was getting mad that we were being so loud, and was talking to us and it was all quiet, and then my phone just so loudly goes off. Me and Ashley busted out laughing. I got to meet up with my friend Zac after Younglife and talk. We talked about everything going on in our lives, it was pretty nice. It's so crazy what the day will bring.

~Life turns in all directions right? God can open doors that we cannot open, and close doors that we cannot shut. Each day is a new opportunity. Let's see where it's going now. And, what I can do with it. ~

2010

So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.

I almost lost you today, Brittany. Something told me to pray for you.
Thank you Lord, thank you for saving their life.

In ten weeks you shaped it

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?