I like to make myself believe, that the world spins slowly.

My life is constantly moving, it never slows down. The only time I seem to get a break is when my eyes are shut. There's so much stress that I cannot contain it. I must live, I must dance, I must be me.
I have to move and get things right in my life. I've got to figure things out. I didn't think I'd ever get to this age, and it's so hard to fathom that at this time next year, I'll no longer be in high school, I'll be moving on with my life. Life isn't going to be the same. I believe that these are still the best years, and I don't think they end because you get a diploma and people move away. I know that things wont be the exact same, but it's not going to be horrible. Life isn't going to be like this scary thing we've made up in our minds. I bet you if that the media didn't talk about killings constantly, the world wouldn't seem as bad. It sucks that you cannot even ride your bike around a small town without fear of being kidnapped lurking over your shoulder. School is fun, and yes, teenage years are the best. But, who said that adulthood cannot be? I'm ready to move and live. I'm ready to be who God made me. I'm ready to live my purpose and live it well. I'm ready, I am ready, I am ready.

It's theraputic somehow.

So I'm moving to New York cause I've got problems with my sleep,
And we're not the same and I will wear that on my sleeve.
So I'm moving to New York cause I've got issues with my sleep,
Looks like Christmas came early, Christmas came early for me.

I put one foot forward and ended up thirty yards back.
And am I losing touch or am I just completely off the track?
And I don't know why I want to voice this out loud,
It's therapeutic somehow.

-thewombats:movingtonewyork

I replay it in the back of my mind

"Brittany Moments", "Rhianna Moments", laughing hysterically, calling each other immediately, "we don't smoke pot, we smoke music".

Brittany, you've been there for me through thick and thin. Other people have gotten angry or was mad at my decisions and wouldn't be around me. You may think some of my decisions are stupid, but you never stop standing by me 100%. Since '06 we've been close and I thank God for that. I hope we do not grow apart next year as our lives take off in different directions. I love you and I thank you for not giving up on me. It truly means the world to me. <3

save tonight, and fight the break of dawn. come tomorrow, tomorrow i'll be gone. ~

younglife

Recently my life has been interesting, up and down, curvy, nauseous, and a bit weird. I've made bffs with my enemies, have good grades, and i'm actually (sort of) getting things finished. It's getting really cold and it's been raining all week long. So, it's not a good mixture, but I'm thankful for the rain. I really need a job, and I need to fix the problems in my life. I'm so bad at just not doing anything about what's wrong. Anyway, bye.